Dec 1, 2021
Zak dives right in to talk about how her life had been impacted by depression and how some of it was rooted in fear of how she would be judged or interpreted by others, which resulted in the fear of showing up authentically and being seen. She unveils that the depression brought her to an all-time low point in her life, she recognized that this wasn’t who she was, she continued to seek outwardly the approval of others and really it came down to looking for love externally. Zak reveals that a big ‘ah-ha’ moment for her was tapping into this idea that she spent a great deal of time, energy and efforts externally waiting for the validation that can only come from an internal place, referring to it as an ‘internal job’. At first, she was afraid to express who she was -- Zak explains that she had this gift of being able to see and hear spirits from a young age about 13 years of age. The depression took over in her late teens and early 20’s, simultaneously diagnosed with cancer, she grappled with an overwhelm of highs and lows experiencing raw emotions of guilt, shame, fear, sadness and more. She reflects on the idea that energy is expensive, so it is important to pay attention to where and to whom you are giving it. Her key message to the listeners is that: connect with what you truly want; ask yourself how you are going to get it; remind yourself how badly you want it; whatever you want to water, be sure to water.